Thursday, March 19, 2015

Finding Freedom

Living in Spain has brought all kinds of learning experiences for me. I’ve gotten to learn new things about language, culture, driving, teamwork, and church-planting to name a few.

I’m also learning a lot about myself. As I’ve had to make many decisions on my own here, I’ve learned that I am a terrible decision-maker! It takes me way too long to make a decision, and I often second guess if I made the right one.

One day talking with my mom I asked her, “Was I always like this?!”

She said, “No, it’s gotten worse as you’ve gotten older.” As I reflected on my life, I realized that as I grew in my faith I became worse at making decisions. How could that be?!

It shouldn’t be that way! But I’m starting to realize that I have feared upsetting God. I have feared falling back into sin, and I have feared losing Him. These fears are not based on God’s truths, and they have paralyzed me for too long.

God promises us freedom not fear. I’m in the beginning of this journey towards freedom, and I don’t know what it’s going to look like or what it’ll take to get me there. I am excited to begin the journey though and hopeful that God is going to teach me what it really means to be free in Christ. 

Thank you so much for doing life with me and taking part not only in what God is doing in Spain, but also in what God is doing in my life. I’m so thankful for your partnership and could not do this without you!